I'm a bad husband. When we're with other couples, I wonder what they're packing under their clothes. I wonder what their sex life is like, if it's passionate. I wonder if they're able to share intimate secrets with each other in a supportive and judgment-free way. When their hands touch, I wonder if they feel that jolt of intimacy. When a woman smiles at me at the gym, I wonder what it would be like to kiss her.

I didn't become a bad husband on purpose, but I didn't quite become one by accident, either. Years of neglect and a lack of reciprocation have contributed, but I probably could have (and should have) tried harder. Sometimes, it just feels like the emotional toll is too much to overcome, or it's too much work to try for fear of yet another rejection. A hand pulled away when I try to hold it, the absence of a simple "thank you" (much less physical intimacy) after I've given an hour-long massage. But I digress.

I'm seeking a bad wife who understands where I'm coming from. A woman who isn't afraid to admit she checks out other guys and wonders what they're packing, how they kiss, how they laugh, how they feel. Someone open minded and nonjudgmental (like me!) who I can get to know and share fun conversations with.

Here are 10 things you might want to know about me to help you decide.

1. I love to laugh and make others laugh. I think most of us take things too seriously (myself included, at times), and it would be refreshing to know I'm making someone smile.
2. I'm a hopeless romantic. My idea of a perfect date is spending a day at a seaside carnival, playing the games, dancing to the music, then walking along old picket fence-lined homes and imagining the stories they could tell before making our way to the beach for a moonlit swim.
3. I care about people. I like to get to know people and what motivates them, what moves them, and what makes them feel. I like to know I've done something to make their day a little brighter.
4. I can carry a conversation... but I don't want to be the only one conversing. I'm inquisitive and ask a lot of questions, but I like to be asked questions, too.
5. I'm creative and musically-included. I play guitar, drums, and harmonica. I write. I create.
6. I'm respectful. I will respect your boundaries and your situation. I will respect that you have greater priorities than OA. I will do nothing to change your situation or mine. I'll just be a supportive friend who can (hopefully) make your days better.
7. I'm not perfect. And I don't expect you to be. I don't care about your body type. I'm interested in getting to know you as a person. I'm athletic (a former wrestler), but I have a few extra pounds. I'm not going to ask for pics anytime soon because I'm far more interested in how you think and what you're passionate about than how you look. That said, I would prefer someone close to my age.
8. I'm open minded, nonjudgmental, and decidedly kinky. I get off on my partner's pleasure. Want to flirt (or play) with other guys? I won't be jealous, I'll be turned on. I'll even help! Yes, I lean submissive and am interested in things like cuckolding and CBT. These are things I would like to explore with an OA partner.
9. I'm on EST and typically available weekday mornings, afternoons, and late evenings as well as occasional weekends.
10. I'm here to make my life a little better and hopefully make yours a little better, too. I don't have any expectations and I'm not pushy. If we chat and you decide I'm not for you, no hard feelings. If you just want to be friends and support one another, that's cool, too! If it does blossom into an exciting, adventurous, and thrilling OA... perfect!

If I sound like someone you'd like to get to know, send me a chat!