I'm a married mom of 3. At home, I'm mostly invisible. My bedroom isn't entirely dead but it's close. I have learned to live with that. It takes most of my energy to try to be a decent mom, look for and maintain stable employment in a world filled with layoffs and tariffs that make no sense, and attempt to age gracefully and not fall prey to binge eating a box of Oreos daily to numb the tiny bits left of me that aren't numb yet. Like all the women here, I like feeling pretty, desired, seen, wanted, and cared about. All things I don't get at home. I met my husband in my early 20s and should have explored more, but I felt it was bad to date around so I didn't much. He's great as a person and a roommate, but I need more.

I'm lonely AF. I made some good friends here and even one FWB, but I realized I need someone who wants what I want. That seems to change by the minute, but at least I want someone who wants the butterflies and connection that can accompany these things. My ex made me feel things I've never felt in my life. Woke me up. I guess that's a good thing. You know when you see someone smile and your heart just skips a beat? When you feel like you've known someone forever and all of your molecules were trying to find each other and then they did and asked "what now?" It's that feeling. That spark. That person who makes it hard to breathe sometimes. Who makes your lips migrate to a secret smile when you think about them. Who makes you feel like you'd throw away all your morals to be stupid and risk everything just to feel them again. Three years ago I would have laughed to think I could find that person here. And then I did. Sort of...

Now, given he didn't feel the same about me, I'm hoping to find someone who can. Who wants that. Maybe I'm just a stupid hopeless romantic, but I'm not going to change who I am. I want someone older and hopefully wiser but imperfect enough that I can offer a shoulder to lean on when times are rough. Someone who also feels lonely and misunderstood who carries a mixed bag of emotions. A contradiction. Someone who is a good person, as much as one can be being here, who wants someone else to walk the ethical balance beam together.

Chemistry is a must for more than friendship and that's hard. I'm picky. And you should be too. You should have a dirty side to you that no one knows and no one would guess. You like being more dominant in the bedroom but you roll your eyes at the idea of telling me what to do every single day. Need someone to match my freak, as they say. Are you out there?

These things die out fast without things to talk about other than the sexy stuff, so please bring some fun interests to the table. I admit my life is pretty boring right now, but I love to learn and live vicariously. Music, politics, culture, travel, exercise, cooking, philosophy, psychology, science are all fair play. I'm not into sports but I don't mind listening to why you are and how your team is doing this year. :)

Send me a picture of you and one thing about you that no one knows to get to the front of the line. :)