We are all on OA for our own reason and most of them are probably derived from the treatment or lack there of that you get from your partner.

I unlike a lot of you have a very unstable unhappy marriage that I am not ever sure exactly why I am hanging on to it. Loyalty, nostalgia, ignorance def some ignorance and love for her family. Anyway I was told by my wife all the things my wife was going to do on Reddit including fulfilling some rather perverse fantasies in an attempt to fuck with my head and get a rise out of me.

It worked, after all these years it still worked. In an act of immaturity and pure spite I posted adds to the same boards offering to fulfill said fantasies. None of which I would enjoy but in a hope that she would see them and reach out and I could fuck with her head back for a change. All the other times I just roll on with my day but this time i went to give her a fuck you back and instead I fucked my self out of the most being OA with a winning personality from what I could tell and definitely a rare intelligence about her. I can only assume she looked at my profile and ghosted for and for good reason as I would have done the same if I saw those post on her page.

Just wanted to vent after shooting myself in the foot like a stereotypical knuckle dragging man. If you see this message me and I will explain myself in detail even though you get the point already. Im not that person and I am ashamed for letting someone who once cared about me manipulate me to the point that i missed out on someone that might actually start to care for me. Im sorry for the shock and embarrassment or disgust that might have caused you. Hope you find everything you are looking for and your smile never leaves.