I'm currently a 39 year old stay at home mom.

We moved to a small, unincorporated community, complete with bears in the back yard, so, nothing to do, nowhere to go, and an unhappy marriage.

You know when you can't talk to each other anymore without it being a fight? You know when the other person is SO self absorbed it's like they don't hear you at ALL anymore? Yeah, that's us! I'm realizing I married a covert narccissist, manipulative man child that puts his selfishness above "us". Tried the talking, and now moved on from thinking he will "get it".

Yes, pic available. Pretty sure I have one on my Reddit profile here.

NOT looking for sexting/video cam calling etc. Looking for something specific, and I'll know when I find it. I am not a slab of meat, and I get enough attempts at "gratify my lust for the sake of my hard dick" use-a-chick at home. Nope, not a man hater, but there are behaviors and attitudes SOME men hold that yep, I hate.

I have 4 boys, 2 that don't live with me (19 and 21), one that splits 2 week/2 week blocks between me and his father, and an 8 month old.

I have 2 dogs, an old morkie, and a Siberian Husky.

Avid coffee addict, red wine drinker, tobacco smoker (including the OCCASIONAL cigar).

Summa Cum Laude college grad. Ex freelance model for 11 years. My reddit photo is me.

Generally, you can find me:

*Playing poker on PokerGaga (A chip poker App, my ID there is 63155636

*PS4 (Dove_SMPDSM). Lately, I've been working through The Long Dark trophies.

*Music lover, (massive eclectic Spotify collection),

*Avid reader (everything from Rimbaude, Blake, Beirce, Moliere, and Homer to Card, Auel, Follet, and Weir)

I tend to be attracted to black haired men. It is what it is. Its not a deal breaker.

Intelligence, emotional availability, wisdom, maturity, etc IS, though. If you can't hold an inelligent conversation past plattitudes, superficial politically correct nicities, canned copy paste auto response cliche's, etc, please don't bother. I am selective, and slow.

Obviously, I can't be at someone's beck and call, as I do have a life. Patience is a must.

Please introduce yourself with some substance and depth. One liners, copy pastes, and bland opening messages will not be responded to.