This will probably be long so I hope you enjoy reading lol. Yes I am very much a music person, and music speaks deep into my soul. Often times I will sit for hours just listening to you tube songs that put my mind in daydream mode. Send me songs and you'll win my heart in a quick fashion! And yes that's a real song by Bryan Martin if you would like to take a listen. And if you think you could be my "Beauty in the struggle"!? I am looking for you! I think a lot of women could relate to that song. But I think we have all been through struggles in our lives in one way or another. Some worse than others, but even those who have had a seemingly great life have had struggles of their own to some sort of degree. And I am not here to judge, I have had my own and still do. Just the up's and down's of our day to day Live's in general. And everything else that's happening in the world now days alone is enough to stress anyone. Maybe you are like myself, who married young and didn't take much time to explore when younger and just settled. Only to find out down the road that the chemistry just isn't exactly on point with the person we settled with. So although we may have a seemingly great life! We are missing something in our lives that needs filled. Which brings us here! And if you have been on reddit for any length of time searching for this dynamic, you have definitely or probably experienced some struggles. Falling for people emotionally who just lead you on and then all of a sudden ghost you for no apparent reason and without explanation. It's heart breaking! But Yeah! We have all been there at least once, if not more unfortunately. Even for myself who has not been on reddit long, has experienced the dreaded ghosting. I have not fallen for anyone off reddit yet. But I am hopeful to find someone who actually wants what I am looking for and doesn't ghost after an hour or two or even a day or two. I am hopeful to find someone who actually wants to get to know me as I do them. I am not everyone's cup of tea and not everyone is my cup of tea either. I have had a couple people that I have turned down as well. But I was honest and told them I didn't think we were compatible for whatever reason rather than just ghosting them. But A majority of the one's I have spoken to here have just ghosted for no reason even when I thought the conversations were going quite well.

So what is it I am looking for you may ask? Well I have had an OA/AP from another site. It's been a few years but what I had was a wonderful thing that lasted for several years. It only ended due to a medical emergency for her, which broke my heart. But was nothing she could have helped. What I had with her is what I want so badly to find again. I don't expect to find someone exactly like her nor will I ever compare anyone to her as everyone is different in their own way. But the dynamic I had with her is what I want to find again. Someone like myself who wears their heart on their sleeve and not afraid to fall for someone emotionally. Someone who likes to send song's back and forth just to let each other know how we feel or a song that makes us think of each other. Someone who like's to send little love meme's or sayings or poems. Someone who likes to communicate well and can carry on an actual conversation without me feeling like I am doing all the talking. And with more than just short little messages or quick replies. Someone who likes to voice chat and video chat when able too or leave little sweet voice messages, just to make the dynamic as real as possible. Someone who wants to share their day to day lives with me through selfies or pictures. Something with someone that just feels like when we dated people in high school and had all those feels and excitement. I am not looking to take your time 24/7 and I understand discretion. Being married myself I know it's not always possible to respond very quickly when spouses are around, and I am not able to either. And that's ok! As long as as we at least respond at some point, I am good with that! For me however voicing and video chatting can only happen throughout the week during the daytime hours when no ears or eyes are around. But I can text most anytime. So I would like to preferably find someone who also has early daytime availability for the aspect of voice and video calls. But who is also available for more than just the 9 to 5 through text messages. Age wise I'm not going to set any hard limits other than be older than my kid who is 28 lol. Although I am not old nor do I feel old. If I am old enough to be your dad, then yes I am too old. So I would say as long as you are over the age of 38 you are good.

About me: I am just your average laid back easy going guy. 6' tall, 180 pounds, Bald by choice (due to receding hair line) so I keep it shaved. However I wear a ball cap 90% of the time. I have that wonderful silver showing in my goatee and mustache reflecting off my deep blue eyes. And constantly told all the time I have the looks of and could be brothers with Woody Harrelson. So if you know what he looks like I guess I am pretty close. And I have to agree I do see a big resemblance! However I promise we are not brothers, but I wish we were lol. I am definitely not a night owl and in bed fairly early. But I am also up really early in the morning drinking my coffee and browsing boring news on the internet. Huge coffee junky as well, stronger the better lol.

So what do you think? Are you my "Beauty in the struggle"? If so and you have gotten through my book lol! Send me a little bit about what drew you to my particular post, Tell me something's about you and what you look like or even an SFW picture. Maybe even send me a song that describes you and what you are seeking. Hoping to meet my person soon and can't wait to hear from you.