I have my person, I love him very much. We have it all, insane attraction, butterflies, long wistful sexy calls and video calls. He loves me too. We are both very in love with each other, to the point of wondering how we can leave our lives to get together, forever. He is out with his W today. Some kind of forced family event. He keeps sending me messages saying he loves me, he misses me, he wishes he was out with me instead, and I know he’s there with her. He says they have a completely DB, which I cling on to, as I am jealous of her. So when he’s with her and sending me these messages I feel a sense of satisfaction, a sense of spite, that he’s with her but missing and loving me. And I know this makes me a bad person, but I can’t help it.

When I’m out with my H I send similar kinds of messages. I wonder if he feels the same, he’s a nicer person than me, so I think not.

Am I alone in this?…