Hi all.

I’ve posted this a few times but I’m still out here trying to find it (a couple of close ones but still not quite there!) so I’m trying again:

I have been thinking about how to articulate what I’m feeling and why I’m here but that’s not always easy so apologies if I ramble but I also wanted to try complete honesty. I’ve posted this a few times but with limited success or things that start well and fizzle quickly for some reason.

I guess is the crux of it is that I feel somewhat lonely. It’s a strange feeling (and sounds a little silly to say) to be surrounded by people but to still feel alone but I’m sure at least people here will understand what i mean.

I work hard to support my family and I don’t begrudge a second of it because I want them to have everything they want in life but I find that it doesn’t leave much room for me and what I want or need. I want a connection and to have something that is just for me. Something that I don’t have to share or compromise on that is just mine.

About me: I’m a big old nerd. I’m well educated and smart and thoughtful (and modest 😂), I work in tech and I’m into most of the classic nerd tropes (sci fi, fantasy, 80s and 90s nostalgia). I’m big fan of reading and am currently on a detective/mystery kick so all recommendations welcome.

Look. I don’t know if my honest but rambling post will appeal to anyone at all but if it rings true and resonated for you and you’re in the UK, Europe or East Coast US (other time zones are too much of a barrier!) then I’d love to hear from you and even if it’s not your cup of tea but you get it then I’d be happy to hear from you anyway