I have craved loving an older man for years. I’ve tried different age ranges just never going over 50 basically. I feel like my dream to love an older man will never come to be. I’ve tried and tried and tried. I’m tired. I wanna hug you from the back and smell your neck. I want to lay on your chest and admire the wrinkles around your eyes. I want to run my fingers through your salt pepper hair and beard. I want to tell you how beautiful you are. I just want to love someone but no one wants my love, let alone reciprocate it. Dating in general has been terrible. Everyone treats everyone as disposable and no one wants anything real, just a hookup. But I can tell that everyone’s unhappy with it yet they keep doing it. I’ll be alone in my corner day dreaming about my older man, being a hopeless romantic.