it seems like i’m only attracted to men that are older then me it first noticeably sprung from a manager that i used to call my work dad he was always kind to me and i clung to him because he showed me sm kindness and care my first real crush ofc it never went anywhere he was a nice man and i was in high school. but i still can’t shake it it’s not even just the age i like it when they can act caring and affectionate to me i thought it was something i would grow out of looking for affection from older dudes because i wasn't getting it from my father (cringe ik) but im sm older now i don't need to have that kind of attention or care im not a kid i don't need to have those things but now its developed worse more sexual now as i had a nsfw dream of an older man last night. even tho its shifted sexually it’s like i don’t like the men older that are perverts i like it when they show affection care are sweet gentle give advice want to lead me etc like really care… i feel silly and embarrassed that i never grew out of it if anything it got worse. have any women here ever felt ashamed and got over it?