I’m literally sitting inside my car right now. Crying. Again. I’m tired of crying. Whenever I have time to pause or think, the tears come automatically. I don’t know what I’m feeling.

Life seems to be happening so fast and I feel detached. I need to do something that would make me busy and won’t let my mind wander off. I feel alone. Sad. Friends are either in a long term relationship or getting married or starting a family. I, on the other hand, can’t even find someone who’d stick around. It’s always the emotionally unavailable guys. I don’t want to seem desperate or needy. But I think I’m on the edge of giving up this whole dating thing.

I wish I could find that contentment someday.