I don't why humans need this kind of thing na in order to survive they need someone and shit. I fucking hate that. My hormones cant stop being horny as hell but i dont want to do it with someone and shit. My mind needs the sanity to talk someone but my other self dont want to. Im fucking confused on what to feel but i know i need it. Pero ayun just a background info, recently went on a fresh break up two months ago. He cheated on me twice and it didn't end well. im feeling happy coz i think im really improving individually like i know im happy alone but i know im also sad at the same time.

I dont know if im sad becauae of the breakup or im sad because of i dont have anyone to tell someone how my day went or what im up to. To be fair, ive been searching and interacting with people trying to really match my interests and vibe but so far wala talaga. Hindi talaga nagmamatch.

Fuck, dunno what to say or how to explain how i feel anymore. But i know that i need someone. Im actually happy on being alone and shit but man, everytime i play a game or watch a movie. There's always a though of "man, this could be fun if im with someone". I think that's the best way to describe it. Maybe ill keep on continuing on being alone and actually embracing it. I don't im fine with it. Maybe im just adjusting. I fucking dont know anymore.