I've been having birthday blues since weeks ago. People greeted me and I really appreciated it. I went out with my fam and SO. I met new people. Someone gave me free concert tickets. I felt so lucky. I was so happy! Everything felt surreal.

I'm finally home after days ng sunud-sunod na lakad and parang nagccrash ako. Hindi ako sanay sa ganung excitement and happiness. I wanted to post something to commemorate these happy moments pero I feel ashamed. I don't know why. Sanay lang ako sa small highs and lows. Sobrang high ng highs ngayon and I'm scared. Gusto ko nalang agad bumalik sa normal but at the same time gusto kong namnamin yung moments.

Medyo nahihirapan akong huminga and parang namamanhid katawan ko. Annoying na bakit hindi nalang maging normal sa feeling.