So this is it pansit na! As in wala nang usapan pa and all. Meron na siyang bagp amd he even posted it on his FB page. For some reason, hineart ko ang post niya with his new partner. Parang ewan lang siguro yung ginawa ko pero at that point, amininin mo ang tapang ko lang sa part na yun, diba? Nagawa ko siguro yun kase gusto kong malaman niya na okay na ako sa ganon. Okay na ako na wala na kami. Okay na ako na makapag focus sa mom ko and most specially, to myself din na hindi ko na naaalagaan pa. I can have more time with my friends and to meet new peeps. Making new friends or maybe something more.

The new guy is yung matagal na talaga niyang gusto. Like bago pa maging kami, yung guy na yun yung niligawan niya muna. Then binusted siya then after a year, ako ang niligawan. Then this guy was flirting with him na while kami pa ni ex. I tried to talk to my ex about it pero he keeps on changing the topic or sasabihin lang niya is "wala lang yun. Friends lang talaga kami. Promise!" Like hello! I was not born yesterday! Please lang wag ako.

He became good in hiding things from me. Pero malas niya and nahuhuli ko siya. Lalo na yung mga dating apps na naka hide sa phone niya and mga kachat niya sa messenger and viber. Like hello! Planning to get a tattoo sa kachat mo sa Grindr and then come what may after? Oh diba? Huling huli ko lang talaga. So at that point hindi ko siya kinonfront but i sent a message sa guy and went to his shop and inquire about the tattoo designs. Sorry for this pero ang panget niya in person. So i took a photo of him w/o any filters added and from there, kinonfront ko na si ex before and i told him na "yung kachat mong tattoo artist ito talaga hitsura niya. So ipagpapalit mo ba yan sakin? Seriosly? Pero kung ganyang level ang bet mo then go ahead! Indulge!" Nashock siya and i told him kung pano ko ginawa. So he got mad at me for using his phone w/o asking for his permission. So i asked "bakit? Pag sinabi ko bang gusto kong icheck ang phone mo papayag ka ba?" I know i somehow invaded his space. Pero hindi ko siya mahuhuli kung hindi ko ginawa yun. So after that, I told him na "last na to ha! Isa pang panloloko mo ayoko na!" Then tahimik lang siya.

So everytime na lalabas kami, nasa pocket nalang niya phone niya. At that point, hindi na ako affected kase i feel likei don't have the energy na to check it pa and was thinking of food or tumingin nalang sa Miniso. Hanggang sa may weeks na hindi na talaga kami nagkikita or nagtatawagan kase busy raw siya. And from there, hindi na ako bothered.

From the time na nagiging distant na siya sakin, dun na ako nagstart mag move on. Then dun narin nag start mag flirt yung guy. I knew it na. So hinayaan ko nalang din kase kapagod narin ipagsiksikan ang sarili sa taong ayaw na sayo na walang guts na makipag break pa sayo. So i let it be. Until nag post ako sa fb na I'm officially single and ready to mingle kase may bago na yung isa. At that point, dun na siya nag post ng mga photos nilang dalawa.

I cannot say na hindi ako nahurt or what. Pero at least gumaan ang pakiramdam ko nung nakita ko yung post niya with the new one. Okay narin yun.

So now, i can start all over and just go with what life has to offer. This is the best time for me na to make bawi to my mom, friends and lalo na sakin. Moving forward nalang. In time alam kong may darating din na mas okay pa sa kanya. Twala lang.