Why do I still feel unwanted kahit ako naman ung may wall and such...

Plus I have my family and Wife who is very supportive... talaga naman bakit still ko pa din to naiisip ko from time to time... I want to talk with someone but never a good conversationalist din I like to listen more on telling mine... auto pilot nalang ako currently at work even nsa meeting... wala na naabsorb tuloy...

I am thankful with my wife that she is really understanding din nman and maalaga... umay din tlaga... ayoko ng ganitong feeling... why does it keeps coming back... hays... I always able to ignore or acknowledge that I am not alone, that I have them, but if went for a sucker punch hirap makarecover ng feeling kahit alam ko hindi totoo...

Telling it in here kasi ayoko na siya mag-worry ulit sakin para lang dito... just wondering if ako lang ba ganun or kung may idea ba bakit ganun...