Or phrasing it better, tangina hindi pala ako pangit?! Haha for context, I grew up being the ~ugly~ kid: fat, nerd, maitim, baduy manamit. The only thing that saved me from social isolation was my sense of humor and upbeat personality. What made it worse was my brother who was one of the campus heartthrobs. Parang dagdag insecurity at panlalait kumbaga kasi parehas naman kami ng genes pero 'yun lang inabot ng mukha ko haha.

Fast forward to now, I think bumawi ang universe sa akin. I kid you not, wala naman akong ginawa kakaiba, tumanda lang ako. Pumayat ako eventually. Naging rich light shade of moreno. Nakapagdevelop ng certain style sa damit at haircut. Sumakto sa sweet spot ang height. Gano'n ba.

Late bloomer nga siguro. Napansin ko na lang na hindi na ako conscious sa sarili. Plus points nga yata sa appeal 'yung newly-found confidence na 'to.

PERO WAIT HETO NGA KASI

I now often get compliments from other people. Sometimes, people also do me favors despite me not asking for it (pretty privilege?). NEVER DIN PALA AKO NA-BLOCK SA GRINDR TANGINA HAHAHA. I am having sex with people who I view as out of my league. And sometimes, I get something more than just pleasure.

Wala lang. Sobrang feel good realization lang talaga niya ngayon na I'm really okay with how I am now.