I'm a graduating student this year. I have been waiting for this moment to come 'cause I want to work already. There are a lot of voices that push me to do that:

• I have a lot of things I want to achieve, and I need money to get them.
• My parents don't have a source of income anymore, and we need money to pay bills, rent, monthly expenses.
• Most importantly, my parents are aging, and there are still a lot of things I want them to experience. There are still lots of events that they haven't done which they deservingly need. I don't want to regret not being able to provide the comfort, the luxury, and the happines while they're still here.

But as much as I want to do all these, I want to rest. I've been a working student since I was a 3rd year college and it hasn't been easy to get through the days.

I'm always tired. I'm burntout every week. I get anxieties. I want to work to provide for my family, but I also want to rest and just enjoy the vacation while I wait for my time to graduate. But could I do that when there's always a voice in my head, at any moment in time, that tells me to work already 'cause everyone's not getting any younger. I feel like like I'm always in a rush, that I should speed things up 'cause life is short.

Idk what to do. I'm tired of thinking too.