I have fallen in love deeply to this women. Lagi kami magka call after work ko. We do play video games a lot. After months nag declare ako sa kanya na nag kakaroon na ako ng feelings sa kanya.

So we went on a date, went to her place, listened to her life story, hobbies and interests, then we fell asleep together.

Then after that I can't get her out of my mind. I kept thinking about her. I care for her. Pag wala syang pambili ng pagkain binibigyan ko pambili, at minsan binibili mga gusto nya.

Then suddenly, she just became distant. Sometimes i do feel like she is avoiding me. Am i just paranoid and over thinking? Because i have felt this before, the same feeling that gut wrenching feeling that makes me fall over.

Because before i have this ex who just used me because i have money. And is good at making me think that she's just busy. But really is avoiding me whenever she gets what she wants. I know I'm dumb.

Which is why i have these feeling. I'm afraid that I'm being used again? Has anyone else also feels like this? How do you cope? How do you even continue?