this is a WLW story so, if you’re not into it, I suggest you skip this one haha.

Backstory to the first time that I liked her.

Back in juniorhigh, she’s one of those geniuses— like a walking calculator, with such beauty. I liked her. Who wouldn’t, right?

We’re friends. She hangs out us frequently.

I thought she was straight, so I took no chances in confessing my feelings towards her. I told no one too, about my liking towards her. I just planned on admiring her from afar— I just can’t make myself to confess to a straight girl.

Just one day, this close friend of mine came up to us and told us that she likes the girl and that she’s in the talking stage with her na. My whole world shrunk. It was seriously painful but I forced myself to get over with because they looked happy and healthy together.

Not long after, they became official and I was supportive.

They lasted for like 2 years, and the parents of the girl didn’t like my friend that caused them to breakup. They were fighting it, but they gave up in the end and had a healthy break up.

After highschool, was college. We went to different universities, and we really didn’t hangout with the girl for more than two years.

FF to the present.

The holidays, means a long vacation for college students. My friends had a list of parties and plans for the whole holidays.

The first hangout of the barkada this holidays was a party. We hosted a party and invited some close friends. We even invited the girl, and she came.

My friend and the girl are good friends now. No tension, no nothing.

She came to every of our barkada hangouts. And for all those hangouts, I was eyeing her. The feelings that I had back then just suddenly went back and messed with my head— the feelings never left. I’m so happy when she’s around.

Her always sitting next to me did not help. I love physical touch, and she’s that clingy type of friend that puts her hand on your thigh when you sit beside her. She’s so caring that she checks on you every single time if you’re okay— random check ups are so cute. She’ll ask you if you’re okay in the middle of the laughs. She talks so soft, and she knows her words.

Ah fuck me ang daming tao sa mundo, bakit sakanya pa ‘ko hulog na hulog.

Ang sakit mo mahalin, Chi.