I told myself I would stop dating. But then.. I met this guy. I thought he was cute, cool, charming. He told me he liked me, and I liked him back. We messaged each other for a few days and tried getting to know each other. He asked me on a date, but I was the one who went to his Town to pick him up because he doesn’t drive and the commute is too long. The first date went well, we were like each others long lost soulmate, there were so much to talk about, we couldn’t stop talking and laughing. There was a connection. We were happy.

We continued to message each other and kept the connection strong. But during those conversations, he would always start to down himself.

Him knowing my background… He’d say “i’m not good enough for you, we’re not on the same level in life, you’re too good to be true, are you sure you won’t regret this, i’m a nobody, I’m nowhere your standards.”

Every time he’d say those things i feel like his pushing me away because he really doesn’t like me, but I was wrong. He really does like me, he wants me, but scared that he will never be good enough.

I really like him :( He asked for a second date, that’s when we had our first kiss. inside the car He couldn’t stop kissing my face, my lips, smell my hair, kiss my arms, my hand. He just couldn’t get enough of me. He likes hugging me also even while I’m driving. But again, he would always say that he’s no good for me.

Basically, he’s a really confusing guy giving me mixed signals! One minute we’ll be sweet and then after he’ll just click! Giving me reasons why i should not date him or be with him.

We ended things in a jiffy :) I tried making him stay even if I shouldn’t be doing that to myself. Why is it so hard to date guys? Standards??? I tried looking for guys MY standards but they don’t like me. So I tried dating guys lower than my standards, and they treat me like shit.

But this guy, he’s different. I wanted him to stay but he was just scared of my decision that it might ruin my life. Oh well…. Back to being single. :)