I finally got my first job & I’m earning enough to buy my wants since I still live with my parents who pays for most bills. For now, I’m responsible for the groceries while my dad pays the rent & utility bills.

I get to hang out with my friends on weekends. Inuman, iced coffee everyday, overnight stays, and so on. Last inuman, sa aming lima na nakinabang, only 2 of us in the group paid for the 2-night hotel stay, drinks, and food. The other three had excuses para sagutin muna raw namin sila.

Now, the two of us are struggling. Hindi sila masingil kasi wala na raw. I get it. One of us has a kid, and she had to bring him to his pedia for a check-up. The other two (B & G) paid some debts. Pero napabayaan ko yung personal expenses ko, which is my fault cause my math was not mathing. 😭

Because of that, I didn’t get to pay my GLoan & it doubled the amount. I never used GLoan btw, but my friend “G” persuaded me, promising na he’ll pay it. He paid on time for the first month naman. I just didn’t expect na yug 6k na loan, magiging 8k because of the interest, payable for 9 months. So yeah, now everyday, the penalty adds up.

The mom friend also borrowed to me 2 weeks ago— 3k muna. She said she’ll just add 500Php within the week. But she ended up asking for another 2k, 2 days after. Until now, wala pa rin akong nakukuha.

Buti na lang nakapagbayad na ako sa review center right before that night we stayed at the hotel.

Anyway, now, for two nights, I haven’t been eating midnight lunch sa office. Ayoko manumbat or something, pero buti pa sila nakakakain pa rin during breaks. I also skipepd buying iced coffee last night— it broke my heart a little kasi it’s the first time. Literal na 148Php na lang natira sakin. Pamasahe na lang for the week til our next payday.

I couldn’t even buy my meds for my anti-anxiety for over a week now, so I’m having my headache for the 5th day already.

I realized na after ko ma-collect lahat ng debts— totalling to around 8k lang naman, hindi na ako magpapahiram kahit sa friends talaga. I hate getting financial problems, ayoko sumama loob sa friends ko.

Naiintindihan ko naman na may pangangailangan din sila, and I do want to help as much as I can. But it sucks that some can’t pay on time as they have promised.