I’m the poster girl for introverts. Having two people in my life has been enough for me. Two geniune friends for my final year of college kahit hindi kami friend group as a trio. It worked. They made me who I am today.

Pero fuck, isang beses na nagtampo ako sa iyo Blossom. Isang-isang beses lang… it got leaked to you by someone I thought knew me well enough na my rage settles down and I pick my words and battles once I’m calm. I can’t even blame her. She’s honest. Kaya ko siya friend.

But, I can’t help but feel deprived of time to say to you Blossom what I felt and you had to see the unfiltered version of that. Blossom, wala naman akong kapatid. I don’t have a boyfriend or a girlfriend. Buttercup is all I have. It was a moment of weakness, napagod lang ako sa duty.

Buttercup, please pass that exam. Hindi na kita pepressure but I can’t loose you too. I hate you honestly. I’m mad but isasantabi ko muna yan kasi may exam ka pang hahabulin.

Most of all, I fucked up. I can’t even get any slack. I can’t even have one person na makikinig nalang muna before they spill lahat ng baho ko. Walang lumabas when you were saying stuff.

I just wanted to know why my friend had plans and a simple explanation sa situation would have been fine. Buttercup, I feel like you dug a deeper hole for me.

I’m losing my two bestfriends. It will never be the same. I’m so sorry. I tried everything I could to be good and I guess that one time na masama lumabas sa bibig ko in a personal conversation, nakalabas pa.

I’m just crying myself to sleep. I just wanted to feel loved but lalo pang lumayo loob mo sa akin Blossom. Buttercup, I don’t even know what we’re going to be after this. I wish I had another support system or another person na mapagsasabihan kasi akala ko I can do this on my own. I think I’m just gonna resort to reddit again and… I’m… I’m never going to be the same. All the love I’ve given you, that’s enough for the year.

No one can be trusted. I’m going to search for another heart when I’m ready again. Buttercup, why did you leave me with barely anything?