let me go back a few weeks earlier

My mom has a habit of bringing her friends over sa house. We’re a family of 5 pero minsan 4. Ako yung eldest saamin and ako mostly yung parang “basura” sa family.

My siblings and my mom get the flowers, the camp by the beach and well as for me I get the forced “birthday” party pero di naman talaga birthday party it’s more of a “pity party” by her friend who’s my tita and her church friends.

The same church that I go to and found peace in pero sinira ng mom ko because well she can’t comprehend that I was starting to be a born again Christian. And I was slowly changing my habit again.

I fucking deleted my nsfw Reddit tangina - pero it all shut down when she told me that “she can’t take me in as a family member if di ako pupunta sa simbahan (yung church nila basically) than going to my church (which is above a Radisson Blu Hotel)

Anyways back to the main topic. They all ate dinner na and everything and well my mom got her drinks and was gonna drink so I basically sat down next to her (planning to palang) kasi yk…. I wanna join the fun and mingle with them but she shooed me away and AGAIN- it’s my PARTY… DIBA DAPAT present ako dun? HAHHAHAH and oo nga pala bat mo ko finoforce na mag ayos nung bahay and you started complaining… “ako na lahat nag linis ikaw wala kang ginagawa ang dumi ng bahay” or when i asked you “para kanino ba yung party” you fumbled saying “saken noooo… i mean para sayo”

The whole fucking day I just wanted to like die pero di ko pinakita yun sainyo kasi sinabi mo na “ungrateful” ako sayo???????

What the fuck…?

Tapos your gonna let me go to the university again???? For fucking what??? I don’t even wanna live yet go to a university????

Also na doxx ako - thrilling diba? 💀