I think this is a NFSW story. I just can't move on properly from this woman. We have no connections, we have no mutuals, we don't have anything in common. The only thing that brought us together for a day, was I was looking for a cuddle buddy before. She msged, we hit it off and scheduled to meet the week after.

And straight up, first glimpse of her, I literally liked her immediately, she was different from the photos, she was way more beautiful, the aura she gives off is so brilliant and her confidence is through the roof.

Then we went to the motel, the ultimate mistakes happened there. She was a neat freak, I went there once and it was not bad, but unfortunately the room provided to us was horrible. We were incompatible in bed. But I really loved our interactions, I really liked how she talks, the things she likes and dislikes, I thought we have a chance atleast to be friends. When I dropped her off, I held on to the thing she said "chat nalang ha". But yeah it never came, I msged her a few more times in the next 2 weeks to apologize and hope we can still talk and be friends. Now I'm blocked and deleted.

I'm sorry for being a long story. I just can't wrap my head around why it hurts so much, given we didn't have the most time together, we were maybe just 4-5 hrs together that day. I just had to let it out of my chest hoping it will lessen the pain. If I can just go back in time when she messaged me, I would have not replied if what comes after is this guilt and pain. I'm sorry. Really sorry.