Just wanted to get this off my chest.

(Context 1) Last year, I had the worst birthday. 5 days before my birthday, the guy I was dating at the time decided that we should stop seeing each other. This left me in a state of depression and anxiety.

(Context 2) I have this new friend that I met through some common friends. We've been chatting for some time and meeting in events with our friends. Nothing out of the ordinary. A couple of weekes before my birthday, one thing led to another and we spent the night together. We had sex, and hangout by a cliff overlooking the metro while watching the stars.

I don't normally plan anything grandiose for my birthday. I'd just normally cook something for may family or order from a nice restaurant. That's it. But for this year, I planned to spend the night with this new friend so we can hang out and watch the stars again at the same spot. I also thought of it as a parting gift since he's planning to migrate in a few months.

I invited him, but I didnt tell him it was for my birthday cuz I didn't want to make a big deal out of it, and I didn't want him to make a big deal out of it. He eagerly agreed.

My birthday went on as usual. We ordered some food, and my sister bought me a cake. She took a video of me blowing the candle and posted it on her stories. I reposted it on mine, as any normal person would.

Suddenly the friend messaged me and asked why I invited him and I didn't tel him it was my birthday. I told him my reason. He decided to reschedule and that I should spend time with my loved ones. I explained my bithday routine, and even told him that he's also a "loved one" for me. Despite my plea, he still insisted that we don't meet that night.

This totally ruined my day and I ended up sleeping early that night, just so I could not feel the pain and frustration at that moment.

Since then, I've been trying to avoid him. We never got to hang out again. Whenever we see each other, I'd just greet him with a very generic smile. If he tries to hug me, I just open up to receive him, but don't reciprocate the gesture. I would just then mind my own business and try my best not to engage with him.

This went on of many months until recently, at an event, we met again. But this time, he barely acknowledged my presence. He just greeted me the same way I have been doing, which was totally fine by me. He probably noticed or got tired of the cold shoulder.

Today, I found out through in of our common friend's post that he already left to migrate. That prompted me to finally conpletely cut him off from my life. I unfollowed and soft blocked (blocked him so that his account would unfollow mine, then unblocked) him from all my social media accounts.

Felt like some weight has been lifted off my chest. It's not a total relief, but at least it's something.