Dad stopped going to work since June. And I'm starting to wonder kung ako yung may kasalanan.

Nung June, a lot of things had happened. Dad had made assumptions na nagpalasingera ako sa birthday ng mother ko when in reality di naman. I defended myself telling him the truth pero di sya naniwala and eversince that, di na sya pumunta ng work.

At first, It was okay for me because I found out na di sya pinayagan magwork kasi the company nurse and the company he worked on told him to rest until kumalma na yung something sa kanya (Sugar ata yun). That was August. Pero nung naging Okay na sugar nya, He still never went to work. He even applied for a loan for a motorcycle, which concerned me more.

Back to the present time and earlier My grandma was talking about my dad not going to work with a close friend of my grandmother. Sa totoo lang nakakahiya kasi we loaned to them often back then to survive. And namention dun about my dad not going to work and he loaned an expensive motorcycle and it embarrasses me more. Nakakahiya na talaga. It's like he's relying on my mom's small business pero konti lang income namin dun.

I'm just a senior high school student and as selfish as it sounds, I don't want my parents to "rely" on me yet. Kasi studyante lang ako and they don't want me to have a part time job rin. so haha awit