So nasalanta ako ng bagyo, lampas tao ang baha sa amin and 48 hours and 3 crying breaks later, natapos na ako maglinis, just enough to make the house livable again.

Monday morning I informed di ako makakapasok at nagsend ng picture na nakalutang lahat ng gamit ko sa 1st floor. End of the day, nagsched ng meeting to follow up work stuff.

For 3 days nobody asked how I was, people messaging me to pressure me to work from home, review reports, update timelines. My bosses know I live in Rizal and I sent the photos. I don't even have a calamity leave kasi di pa ko regular, so di ako bayad sa absence ko.

Hindi kami magkakaibigan, so wala ako ineexpect na concern. Pero sana naman wag na mag follow up ng work stuff. My security is threatened. I am still stranded due to land slide sa mga daanan, no transpo, muddy perimeter. Dapat papasok na ko bukas pero ayoko makipagplastikan at sabihin na okay lang ako pag nangamusta sila, sabay uutusan nila ko na tapusin mga naiwan ko. Walang sincerity.

Would need to book with my therapist to process this. The house I traded my soul for in my 20s was a mess. At this point wala na ko pake kung di nila ko iregular.