This has been my biggest regret and what if. Imagine this was 10 years ago but still I’m being haunted. I had flashbacks last night bc I saw a recent post from him. I was discovering myself as a college freshman, not really sure if I was gay bc I never had romantic feelings towards the same sex. But I knew there’s something in me. I am closest to girls. First time in like my pre-adolescent years that I had a straight guy best friend. We’re like brothers at some point. To be clear, I never had romantic feelings towards him. Things got messy in college. By things, I mean almost all corners of my life got messy during my freshman year. So I ended up leaving him with no explanations. As an adult, I know myself better now. BUT IF I KNEW THAT IT’D BE THE LAST TIME I WOULD FEEL TROPA VIBES WITH A STRAIGHT GUY AND HOW HARD IT’LL BE FOR THE YEARS AFTER THAT TO CONNECT WITH STRAIGHT GUYS OR GUYS IN GENERAL, I WOULD’VE DONE BETTER. I AM SORRY.