[WARNING: UNORGANIZED RANT AND SELF-LOATHING TEXT AHEAD]

• Living paycheck to paycheck. Salary that isn't keeping up with increasing prices.
• Toxic work / living environment.
• A college dropout trying to go back to school to get that elusive diploma.
• Insecurities that are too many to mention.
• Loner, going through with many things alone.
• Already getting used with being rejected, ignored, "seen-zoned", set aside. Often misunderstood. Worse, getting bullied
• Setback, after setback...after another setback. Both in professional and personal life
• ...

Ano pa ba? Should I go on with this list? Should I explain myself even further?

But more than this self-loathing list...I'M TIRED. I'M SO, SO TIRED OF THIS LIFE.

I feel like I've always been chasing over things na di ko alam kung san patungo o may patutunguhan ba tong maganda. Na parang...feeling ko kulang lagi ang 24 hours sa isang araw?

Everytime that I try doing things to make this fucking life better, things will suddenly fail and fall apart. Then, it goes on and on like a vicious cycle.

Bakit ba ganito ang mabuhay?

I feel so overwhelmed...that I'm almost close to stop caring about everyone and everything altogether.

You know what's even funnier? Up until now...hindi ko alam kung pano ko ba to nagagawa? Pano ko nagagawang maitawid na subukang mabuhay araw-araw? Kahit halos wala na kong makuhang appreciation sa purpose ng buhay kong hindi ko naman hiningi or choice in the first place?

Hay. Oh siya, wala nga pala akong time sa ganito. Kailangan kong mapatuloy sa buhay. Rant over