Got hooked sa title? Well, there's a reason why it's written like that. Until now kasi I'm not sure kung si R**a ba talaga yung nakausap 'ko.

So, I met this girl last July 7, 2023 here sa Reddit. I have an NSFW post and she inquired. I'm looking for a potential FWB that time. As usual you indicate here sa Reddit things about yourself; I indicated that I'm a musician and a music enthusiast. Her inquiry was about a ticket from a particular foreign international band na mag-coconcert yata dito sa Philippines that time. At first, akala 'ko is hindi sya namali since I'm a musician. I thought na baka binobola nya 'ko na maybe she wants a ticket for my upcoming gigs, tho 'di pa naman kami sikat. Until she told me na namali lang daw sya ng inquiry "according to her." But, long story short napunta sa NSFW stuff usapan namin until she gave me her TG username and chat 'ko raw sya do'n since invested sya sa mangyayari sa post 'ko.

Based on pictures in her profile. Bet 'ko sya. Sabi 'ko sa kanya sana sya na maging first 'ko. Swap pics kami, masaya 'ko kasi sabi nya I look decent naman daw. Pumalakpak yung ears 'ko! Hahaha then I asked her na baka pwede nya 'ko iconsider. Sabi nya yes naman but here's the catch, may Fubu raw sya that time. Maybe if wala na sila baka ma-consider nya raw ako.

I told her willing to wait naman ako. And ayun, lagi kami nagkakausap until naging clear intentions na 'ko sa kanya. But, may may nameet sya, type nya raw and naging boyfriend nya eventually "according to her." Umiwas ako, nag lay low ako sa pakikipag-usap and told her that the reason is because nirerespect 'ko sila ng BF nya. Mga August/September up to October naging sila "according to her." Prior to that sabi nya na baka tumigil na sila ng Fubu nya kasi baka magka girlfriend na raw si Fubu nya. Sabi 'ko sa sarili 'ko magkaka-chance na 'ko. Pero ayun he met the guy na sinasabi nya.

During those times na nagkausap kami she keeps telling me stories of her sexcapades. Syempre nahuhurt ako kasi nga naging clear intentions na 'ko sa kanya. Pero 'di lang naman lagi dun yung usapan namin. Graduating ako that time, and I must admit na nakakatulong sya. Hinehelp nya naman ako and she's giving me tips and life advices.

Actually mga around July 30 I discovered something na yung kausap 'ko ay hindi talaga sya. Pero tinuloy 'ko lang, kasi masaya e. Ang bitter sweet nga lang. Pero ewan para ba 'kong nafufullfill habang nasasaktan. Masokista yata ako! Hahaha pero ayun, alam 'ko na delusional ako pero wala, masaya e.

Fast forward, October nag-break "daw" sila. Baka bigyan nya raw ako ng chance na alam nyo na. Hehehe... Kaso ayun, may nasabi ako na G ako sabay bawi kaya naghanap sya ng iba. Nayamot yata sa'kin si R**a. 😅 Pero that time din I discovered yung account nung kausap 'ko sa Facebook. Gusto 'ko kasi malinawan. Sorry kung medyo creep at weirdo ako haha Eme! (pakinggan nyo Creep ng Radiohead)

Lahat ng info na sinabi nya sa'kin is hindi totoo. Pero I understand kasi maybe she's protecting herself lang din. So pinagpatuloy 'ko pakikipag-usap kasi nga masaya! Hahaha

Fast forward tayo, February 28 nakita 'ko may long-time BF yung si R**a. I confronted yung kausap 'ko and told her that. Then nag-cut ties na kami mga March 7.

Hanggang ngayon hindi 'ko sure kung sya ba talaga yung nakausap 'ko o hindi. Maybe not all questions needs to be answered. I keep searching the profile and I've seen na magkaka-baby na yata si R**a and her long-time BF. They also tied the knot last May. Hindi 'ko alam kung dapat ba 'ko masaktan kasi baka 'di naman talaga sya yung kausap 'ko pero nasasaktan ako. It's fine, it's a good hurt 'cause it feels like I'm alive. Hahaha But I'm okie, I'm fine, kinchana kinchana, teng neng neng neng neng, rakassaakit! Still happy for her! Unti-unti 'ko nang tinitigil pag-stalk. Hindi na healthy.

Si Ra man sya o hindi. I'll be always thankful to her. She made an impact na in my life whether she's Ra or not.

To R**a, if mabasa mo man 'to. Salamat sa 8 months! I want you to know na nagbunga yung encouragements and tips mo no'n. Graduate na 'ko, Cum Laude. You've been a part of this! Stay safe ah!

So, to this girl whose name isn't R**a, I'm glad that I've found 'ya!