As the title said, I (M 24) lost what I thought was something special. Call me stupid, pero minahal ko siya (F 22) in that period kahit hindi pa kami nagkikita.

Kahapon magkausap pa kami but then bigla na lang siyang hindi nagreply. I thought she was just busy in her thesis defense starting today May 29 - 31. Out of all places, sa gym ko pa nakita na she unfollowed me in all my socials. I can no longer contact her.

Ang hirap magbreakdown sa gym, kasama ko pa mga tropa ko. Hindi ako makapagsalita, right after may game pa kami ng bball. I tried to play, kahit nasusuka ako ar hinang hina sa nangyari, pero I left early since hindi ko na talaga kaya, after dropping off another teammate, the tears just fucking fell off my face, hagulgol talaga. I never experienced that since my first rejection in high school.

Ang sakit sobra, kahit na in the small window we had together, hindi ko pa rin tanggap… hindi ko alam kung anong ginawa kong mali. Just when I was in my happiest, it call came crashing down on me. Idk if I can even recover from this, ang sakit.