I never thought that was the last time I’ll see him. I never saw it coming.

What we had ended unexpectedly. Sometimes I still think I had blown things out of proportion, but some voices confided me with the thought that what I did was out of self-respect. I loved him, and I realized how much I loved him when I broke up with him. But what I found out annihilated me.

It was warm palm sunday morning, we went out to buy palm for his place and returned home. Everything, I thought, was fine. Hindi niya na ako hinatid sa sakayan, mainit and I understood that. I kissed him goodbye, never knowing what’s about to come. Un na pala ung last time na makikita ko siya. Had I known it, I should have held on tighter.

Mahal ko siya at sobrang minahal ko siya. But the compounding revelation had my cracks grow bigger that it broke me. There was nothing I could do to bring my pieces together. I’ve endured long enough.

And here I am, thinking if I made the right decision. pano kung pinakawalan ko yng taong para talaga sakin?Will I ever find love again?

Totoo pala ung sabi ni Adele na “it matters how it ends, what if I never love again”. Hindi ko na alam.