I'm (25F) currently in a long-distance ENM setup with someone overseas, and for a year I've been exploring connections with other people through dating apps.

Eventually it became tiring, even with the premium subscription, so for a while now I haven't been looking for any type of connection other than the one I have rn. I found myself opening Reddit last week mostly for research on migrating, and some r4r posts in my feed made me consider na "screw it, why not".

Coming into the local r4r subreddits, I don't really have any expectations on what I will get. I just know for a fact that I am lonely, people here are spontaneous, and kailangan ko lang ng kasama so panigurado may papatol one way or another. Basta may kasama na humihinga at di ako gigripuhan sa tagiliran, okay na.

Although I found someone na for the night, I entertained a guy (27M) in my DMs because may common ground kami which stood out for me—which was LOL: Wild Rift. The following night we played a couple games together and got to know each other sa in-game voice chat. Eventually we continued our call in another app to the point na inumaga na kami kakachika.

I guess this boils down with how I felt so comfortable with this person compared to the year's worth of encounters sa mga dating apps. He welcomed me despite the fact na ENM ako (which is kind of uncommon dito sa Pinas), and with our interactions I can tell that our connection is brimming with potential to be something that's really profound. I never knew na this connection was something that I needed, na it's only been a day and we've been so emotionally vulnerable with each other. I wasn't expecting something na beyond surface level yung mga interactions.

If ever this doesn't work out nakakalungkot lang isipin pero it's okay with me. Kung saan man ako dalhin nitong interactions namin—whether kung magka-duo kami sa laro, friends, or something more—I'm fine with it. I just don't want this connection to fade away. Then again, ilang araw pa lang naman nakakalipas and we have our own pace. Tbh if ever man na makita niya to, hopefully you feel the same sentiments, too. Pero okay lang if hindi.

I might be feeling a lot of emotions at the moment, and I just had to air it out, one way or another. Thank you for taking the time to read my post :)