I thought I'm already at peace with the fact that my boyfriend hid being in love with his close friend before we were together. But months after and we just celebrated our anniversary but I realized I still can't trust him because of that. I still can imagine that he's in love with her even though he seemed to block her already everywhere when I told him to after a big fight.

We're okay with friends around and I can feel he's in love with me but I don't know why I can't seem to forgive him and trust him.

I'm afraid this won't change unless I go through his phone everyday and make sure he's not cheating on me.

I don't know what else to do because I want to enjoy the relationship but at the same time when I do, all his denials and the lies always go with it.

Do you think this will still work? What can I do?