For some context, I was into some girl for like a year and a half. Talagang umasa ako. We were very sweet to each other. But the thing is hindi naging kami despite my best efforts.

The thing is, she is with someone aweful. Maybe even until now. Yung guy, may kaso. Kwento sakin ng girl na nagpaasa sakin (at some point kinwento niya sakin so inisip ko hiwalay na), may kaso yung lalaki na frustrated homicide. Nakasaksak daw. Hindi niya nakwento sakin buong story, pero ang isang key witness is yung ex nung guy (or maybe hindi niya ex dahil sa sunod na kwento ko hahhaa).

Itong babae na hindi ko ma-identify kung ex ba or sila pa rin, inuuwian nung guy to save his ass from the case. Ang gulo. Hindi mo alam kung sino yung kabit kasi ang sabi sakin ng nagpaasa sakin, kilala siya ng family ng guy pero tinatago siya from the rest of the world tapos yun nga, nauwi sa ibang babae and maybe fucks her just to save his fucking ass. Tang ina niya, hindi lang siya red flag. RED BILLBOARD SIYA.

Now, what is the urge? Natetempt ako na imessage yung isang babaeng inuuwian at sabihin na may ibang babae yung guy at malamang iiwan rin siya once acquitted na yung gagong yun. I am not doing it because alam kong hindi ako dapat makialam, tsaka syempre baka mapahamak din yung nagpaasa sakin (oo na sige na, dapat at this point wala na akong pake pero wala eh. tanga rin ako lol 🤷)

Sorry kung magulo ako magkwento. I need to talk about this to someone or gaya ng ginawa ko, post it somewhere so I can get this thought out of my system. Kung mabasa to ng pinursue ko before (sana wala siyang reddit mygahd), it is what it is na lang siguro sasabihin ko sa sarili ko hahaha. Pinipigilan ko naman yung sarili ko na gawin tong maitim na balak ko eh.