Context: My boyfriend (now my ex) broke up with me last week. Due to his personal issues and our differences in belief/faith.

How can I say goodbye to him, when I didn’t even want to agree with this break-up? I didn’t have a choice but to give in, since it seems like he really needs it?

How can I say goodbye to him, when I was fixed on him being my future husband? When we already had plans and dreams together?

How can I say goodbye to him, when all I wanted was a man who will finally treat me right and he came along and made my wish come true?

How can I say goodbye to him, when all I wanted is to be there for him through his ups and downs and make sure he feels all the love, care and support that he deserves?

He is a great guy. All his personal issues with his current well-being can be fixed, I know that for sure. But how do I compete with a higher being? I was willing to compromise my own faith and understand why he was so firm on his beliefs, but that won’t be enough to make him stay.

I keep on asking myself, will I ever be enough for someone to stay forever? All I wanted was a happy ever after with someone who loves me as much as I love him. I thought I finally found him, but then he had to leave me.

I will never be enough for any one, I guess.