The one last year was not as deep as I thought it was. Akala ko, di ko masusurvive though. Kinaya ko.

But this one, etong recent, it was really deep. Finally, I saw my future with someone again. There were times though na we really fought hard. But tonight, it was different.

I dont wanna beg anymore and try to convince them na I am worth fighting for. I want someone sure of me everyday, always. I dont wanna wait around till they are sure of me again.

And after a while, I asked them again. But they said, tapos na, ako daw tumapos. I just agreed and said I wont wait around na. But it was my fault again.

I dont know why I am here din tbh. I am just really hurt. Dont I deserve a love na is sure and na I dont have to beg for?

Hayy. Sad Christmas and New Year all over again.