Fuck. Ang bigat-bigat putang ina.

March, I learned I'm adopted.

April, I was diagnosed with a rare eye disease which can cause permanent blindness. I was also raped by my hook-up after he forced anal sex on me when our agreement is only side fun.

June, my parents' business almost went bankrupt. Dati, chill lang ako sa gastos, now I have to split bills na talaga. Buti na lang, na-promote ako and my salary increase is more than enough to help sustain our bills.

August, I lost a friend who's so dear to me. I had no choice but to do it kasi narc siya and his inability to make himself accountable is affecting my mental health. As of writing, nasasaktan pa rin ako.

September, my vision worsens. Now, my left eye has no more peripheral vision. Gitna na lang talaga ang nakikita ko.

Nagkasakit ng November. Twice.

And just now, some fucker na kina-cancel ngayon tried to make me a scapegoat. He took advantage of my vulnerability to do it. What happened is I called out a bunch of gays for their problematic attitude at pinag-initan ako. Now, si gago, nagkalat ng mga walang katotohanang kwento like sinasabi ko raw na marami akong manliligaw, backstabber daw ako, etc, all for the sake of shifting the attention to me. I'm just glad a bunch of people took my side kaya nag-backfire pa rin sa kanya. But still, that shit is distressful.

Putang ina. Ramdam na ramdam ko talaga pagbagsak ng mental health ko. I've been like this since the start of December. Lagi akong galit. Laging gusto kong magwala. Laging may urge ako na magbasag ng gamit. I just want to vent out my anger on something. I can tell my besties are starting to dislike me kasi na-a-absorb na nila ang negativity ko. I withdrew from everyone for now before shit gets worse.

Putang inang 2023 to. Sobra na.