Just wanna let off some steam 'cos I'm angry, I'm furious, I'm enraged, but devastated and heart-sunk. I'm half a world away from home to pursue my studies, and I had to break things off with my girlfriend (now ex) after a lot of fights. She had threated to do so numerous times after not feeling reassured enough, but I was in a bad spot myself. I go to a military school and I have no control over my time. To make matters worse, my home was not at its coziest while I was away and everyday, I would wake up to a different version of my ex (let's call her 'her'). I would wake up wondering if I had been removed again from her Instagram or Twitter, if she had deleted or archived our photos, if she was still someone I could come home to when I can. She had let other people get into her head by saying that I will find someone else, and she stuck with that. We broke up around last week of September. I dipped from my progress --- I did horribly during midterms and post-midterms and was just a functioning robot at that point. I wanted to check up on her so I stalked her only to find out she had already replaced me. She had found someone else as early as Holy Week... and the other guy might have been even around before we broke it off if she found someone else that quick. How could I have been so stupid, to have taken all those words from her about me finding someone else, replacing her... when she did that to me instead. Now, I'm here about to spend Christmas with people I barely know, half a world away from home with my heart 6 feet underground. Everybody tells me that it's for the best, that I should just focus on building my career... I'm building my career in my early 20s to have no one to spend my life with later on. I don't know what I did to deserve this...