TW MENTAL HEALTH STRUGGLES

Alam mo yung di ka lang nag check ng ilang araw, tapos biglang may nangyayari nang di maganda sa mga mahal sa buhay mo?

Nasa labas lang ako ng bansa ilang araw tapos midway through my vacation yung isang friend namin (si Shu) parang nag mental breakdown at di na sumasagot sa lahat ng social media, tapos wala akong bagong number nya. Nag 'Thank you' lang nung sinabi ko na worried ako for him over TWITTER DMs. I had to use TWITTER DMs kasi wala akong ibang way na ma contact sya kasi nasa SG ako nun. May support system naman sya sa family nya pero nakakatakot pa rin when biglang mawawala ang friend mo na usually sya naman ang bibo samin.

Tapos yung isang friend namin (itago natin sa pangalang Vil) naman medyo matagal nang may problem tapos he got fired yata from his job which he was so excited to get after getting fired from the company I'm working in...And ayun dinelete ni beshie lahat ng gaming accounts at fb account at discord as in binura talaga. Nakita ko sya one last time kasi pumunta sya dito on the night na paalis na ako pero ayun yun na pala ang last kasi nag send sya ng napakahabang message thanking me for our time together (he sent personalized messages to everyone sa friend group) and pucha natakot ako na may gagawin syang irreversible.

Grabe naiiyak ako nagt-type nito, parang wala akong magawa kasi anlayo nila at di ko naman physical na mameet. 30th bday ko pa naman at the end of the week, I was hoping na makapagdinner ako na kumpleto kami lahat pero malabo yata mangyari. Nagsabi na si Vil na di sya makakapunta and parang di na yata kami magkikita ulit. Si Shu di pa nag reply.

Ganito pala pag tumatanda? Yung wala kang magawa kasi desisyon nilang lumayo sayo? And all you'll hope is that they'll stay alive and breathing kasi for as long as they're alive then there's hope.

So for everyone who feels like they're alone...please don't hesitate to reach out to an old friend. Or even reset your life if you don't like what you have right now. Just please, please stay alive.