I know, I brought this upon myself, and I must face the consequences.

24M. To those who read my question here on another subreddit, yes, I chose Company C. I started today.

It was one of the worst companies na napasukan ko, no matter how much the salary is. Overworked, forced OTs, OTs in day offs, makalat na work environment. People not caring for safety or cleanliness at all. On my second day bukas, I was instructed 12hrs shift agad. Kanina, 10 hours shift ako on my first day. Kahit na sabihing bayad ang OT, that's still grueling.

I don't really know what kind of environment the company is, until I finish signing their contract. Oh boy. The moment that I saw the entire plant, made me want to go home already. I didn't.

Finished the 10 hour shift, went home, ignored my parents as in I just passed them like they weren't there, turning a blind eye and deaf ears to them, took a bath, got on my room and cried. My gf consoled me, and blamed me for the things that made me cry today at the same time.

I feel sad, weak, vulnerable, stuck, helpless, and at the lowest of my career. Crying right now. All these because I picked ease of transportation and travel time than going outside my comfort zone and try to do something that I like to do and explore.

I even thought of my previous employment, and where I am now. Like a fall from grace. No. It is really a fall from grace, and I am all the one to blame it.

I'm sorry. Naglabas lang ng sama ng loob.

Sa lahat ng taong nagwowork pa rin sa trabahong di nila gusto pero patuloy pa rin. Nakakamangha kayo. Napakalalakas ng loob ninyo.