Dati ko pa na-nonotice 'to. Like one month into the break up pa lang. Even his friend somehow said na my ex likes when I'm bothered.

I'm healing well naman na. I've been staying in my lane, alone or with friends, and not using any new landi to fill up the void. I've been engaged in a healthy healing process. For the most part, kaunti na lang 'yung kirot when I find out about something. Kaunti na lang din 'yung pake ko. I used to wish him well dati until I realized na dapat unahin ko muna 'yung well-being ko so I've been flushing him out my system and it's been effective at decresing the care I have for him or what he's been doing.

Ang napapansin ko lang sa mga limited time na may usap kami is masaya siya kapag bothered ako about him and another girl (as a test lang kunware babanat ako na bothered ako kasi nga hinuhuli ko kung matutuwa siya. I was bothered naman talaga kaso hindi na masyado ngayon eh). I will never forget 'yung tawa and ngiti niya nung nag-joke ako nang pa-bitter about the possibility of him and another girl. Haha parang pure evil.

Tapos ayon sa limited time nga na makakapag-usap kami parang ine-ensure niya na may mapasok siya ng something na mag-iimply na may bago na siya. Mapa GC pa 'yan or PM.

I'm over the new girl issue na. Tanggap ko na 'yon. Alam kong gusto niya akong maging affected and you'd probably think he's winning kasi I do seem affected pero I'm not bothered in the way he wants to.

I'm bothered kasi ang sad na he's consistent in showing signs na he gets off when I'm sad/in pain about us. I'm sad na someone out there, whom I loved, cherished, and prayed for, is rooting for my pain like this. On top of that I am very disturbed kasi why would he wish that for me eh ang peaceful naman ng ending namin?