yep, you read the title right. di ko alam pano to simulan. di na ako maka tulog ulit dahil sa message na na-receive ko. i was supposed to go back to sleep, pero puta i accidentally turned on my phone and saw a message that made me go spiral.

so for context, my parents separated years ago; 2014 to be exact. they never got anulled. my mom was just done with my dad's fuckery. and yes, it's the same mistress. the same person that broke the family apart. she messaged my mom with my dad's phone number during a storm in Manila and pretended it to be stolen tas ang ending bigla siyang nag confess na siya pala yung kabit the whole time. Parang, gago????

after what happened, lumayas siya sa bahay namin but promised to provide us financially. so yeah, in the next years he wasn't physically present na talaga. I would only meet him once a year or not at all. He was mostly present during my enrollment sa school and stuff but other than that, NONE.

when my mom died in 2019, He didn't even come to my mom's burial. A month after my mom's death he suddenly showed up out of nowhere and his family (my relatives) were like side eye-ing him the whole time. I was honestly expecting for him to remarry his mistress agad2 but idk what held him off.

tapos ngayon, i suddenly receieved a message out of nowhere from my dad saying he wants me to meet up with him soon and wants us to meet his "wife" and "kung pwede". And yes, he is HALF her age

putang ina gago di ko alam ano ma fi-feel ko. I WAS SUPPOSED TO GO BACK TO SLEEP AND NOW I CAN'T. I honestly don't wanna deal with this shit kase tang ina I haven't even got over with my friendship breakup a few months prior TAPOS ITO AGAD? TEKA LANG!! DI BA PWEDENG TIME OUT MUNA?

di ko alam ano ire-reply ko?? like ano ba gusto mog sabihin ko? congrats?? like puta nangingig pa yung mga kamay ko while typing this.