TW: Vomiting

If you have been following me for a while, u should know na I've recently been in a breakup and that this is a throwaway account to preserve my identity. If you wanna read what happened here's the link to the post

*so far everything is okay. Paminsan-minsan may flashbacks, pero as much as I can, I try to focus kasi madami pakong schoolwork na need tapusin. Minsan pag natutalala ako, 'di ko mapigilang maluha. Hindi alam ng friends ko what happened, I can't tell them kasi hindi na rin nila ako pinapansin. So pumunta ako sa cr para umiyak.

-After what happened, di na rin ako kumakain ng tama. Once a day nalang ako kumain at minsan wala pang gana. just now was my 3rd relapse. Umiyak ako. Pag labas ko sa cr, bumalik ako kasi there's an urge to vomit. Nasusuka ako to the point na iiyak ako ulit.

Gusto ko pa ring alagaan self ko, pero need ko din damdamin lahat, para unti-unting mawala na. I will be okay, but for now, I have to go thru this muna.