I am a 33 year old man, and I only had 1 GF, being panganay and all we all know what that may entail for us, my parents was always against the idea of me having a relationship thats why we broke up when i was in college, i was a part time student and a scholar to boot, they said that having a GF was a big distraction which thinking about it, was really in reverse as being with her inspired me to persevere more in my studies, 6 years after we broke up we met up again, i was doing a little good in my career entering a mid level position, but since prophecy fulfilled I am breadwinner now, all of the improvement we have right now was directly because of my jobs (multiple jobs) we got together again, thinking that we could try again, yet they become more toxic, as ako din nagpapacollege ng kapatid ko that time, thus we decided to really end it again, after this breakup it broke me so far as I sabotaged my career my relationship with my family and friends.

time and time i tried to fix my life, got to change career and work towards a new goal and consistently i was putting effort, now i was in a senior role on a better company, earning a good figure enough for my family. but when pandemic hit i got worried for her financially. as she is in a industry directly affected by the pandemic, i bought a insurance plan from her recently which requires a physical meetup for the signature, seeing her for the first time after how many years opened things i thought i buried, just a few words of encouragement from her gave me a boost that i worked for a long time,
but seeing her happy now, i am relieved din naman she is happy and safe and that is all i wanted. the sad thing is she would be much more happier with anybody else but me, that is one thing for sure. jusko seeing her made me want to hug her, to hold her hands. I dont even want the day to end, but she has to go and i have to leave din due to work and thankfull for that din since if not i might have said something pathetic to worry her. when she asked if i already had somebody i said yeah, i just showed a randome pic of me and a friend together. i said things where generally ok for me which in some part naman totoo. one thing and one thing for sure, I still feel strongly for her the same way I do 15 year ago