every couple of months if not some time or days in a month. i have this episode/s where everything feels like a chore.

its my birthmonth tapos nagkataon pa na nagsimula yung episodes ko this week. i thought its just fatigue from work but then i realized my episode started. in this monthly phase or every couple of months phase, i tend to feel like quitting everything, not attending anything. or even caring for myself.

Napakahirap pa dahil kahit na ganito feeling ko, i dont have the luxury to leave work kasi umaasa rin yung immediate family ko sa salari ko. Everyday I have to force myself to prepare for work and work the day.

There are moments that i suddenly feel like crying for no concrete reason pero wala naman lumalabas na luha. Sometimes makes me wonder if my body is trippin on me.

Nag aalala ako na itd be severe(like di ako naliligo or even eat because it feels tiring to even do) that i wont attend my own birth day, naka set na kasi lahat eh, place and stuff.

im not a religious person pero everytime this happens it get to make my hands hold each other and call him..