is it too wrong to wish that rather an outward yank so sudden, your grip around me loosened delicately slow instead? even if the process later on picks up pace, even if takes worse toll on me through and after, is it really too much asking you to spare me a few more whiles? ik neither situation would hurt less, no probability meeting the same end could ever wane the indescribable pain but mama just why was i ripped off the chance to risk my all for you first? why wasn't i given the opportunity to hold you a bit longer could it require me consequences in return? mama, isusuko ko lahat para sayo eh. lahat, ma. walang pagdadalawang isip, iiwan at ipagpapalit ko lahat para sayo. bakit 'di ako hinayaang gawin muna 'yun? my career, my attainments, my own life mama i'd so quickly trade just to hear your usual matilda sneers again and glimpse on the figure that defined what safety so as warmth is to me, epitomized. kainis hhh why should you be in all sorts of hurry. adulthood just made me master fine composure but yk i still go internally frantic whenever i lose sight of you in grocery aisles. now i lost you. so fast, so swift. mama.. no situation could've braced me for farewell, i'd disintegrate miserably either way, but is it too selfish to wish i've snatched a lil bit of time to take care of you first?