Alam niyo yung feeling na ikaw nalang yung single sa lahat ng circle mo? Like yung mga childhood friends mo, high school & college friends mo is almost all of them are married and with children na? And some of them are single parents? Tapos yung nakikita mo sa feed ng social media mo is yung family photos nila na may caption pa na “my lovable little family” kheme na ganon? Tapos post ko sa fb is mga selfies ko lang? Well, sometimes with my mom or with my cats pero most of the time is selfie lang talaga. Last week kase dumalaw si best friend na girl and she handed over a wedding invitation. I was shocked kase she’s getting married na. So I cried kase finally, ikakasala natin sila ng long time partner niya. And ang isang reason pa is wala na akong kasamang mag sbux and mag vent out ng mga hanash ko sa life.

So After the iyakan and yakapan with my bestie, I went inside narin and told my mom about it. My mom was happy and she even texted my best friend. Then my uncle heard the news and he went to me and asked “ikaw? Kelan mo bibigyan ng apo mommy mo? Ikaw nalang yata ang single sa lahat ng magkakaibigan ah? Medyo nabother naman ako sa statement ng uncle kong yun. Pero what can I do? Member ako ng rainbow community and I don’t think legal magpakasal dito sa pinas. And if ever na magpapakasal ako sa same sex, tanggap kaya nila ako? Ang pressure lang talaga. Siguro in my situation ang hirap makahanap ng someone who can be with me until oldies na kami.

I have thought of having a baby lang w/ no strings attached. Baby maker? yes! If you have millions like Joel Cruz, why not? Diba? But wala akong Milyon for that. Nag iipon pa ako for my future. I don't think I can "do" it with a girl talaga. Surrogate or just inject the thingies inside nalang basta no contact mga sis! Wit ko talaga keri yun.

Pero tbh super happy ako for my friends and relatives na have started their family na. I know in time magkakaanak din ako nang manahimik na sila at hindi na ako marindi sa mga questions nila like kelan ko bibigyan ng apo si mommy and all. kakaloka lang talaga.

PRESSURE SIIIIS!!!