I would be lying if I would say I do not miss you, that I do not want to still be with you. I would be making a fool of myself if I would say that I do not crave kissing you, hugging you, holding your hand, staring at your face, and spending my days loving you.

I do not want to lie to myself anymore. I love you still and I love you too much. But it is easier to hate you after everything you wrote about someone else. It is easier to feel nothing towards you than to cry my days wondering why it was so easy for you to feel that way towards somebody else. 

I love you and I still feel a lot of things towards you. But they are right. I should choose to heal from this thing, from the immeasurable pain I am feeling. And later on, be with someone who makes me feel good things being with them. I should choose someone not based on how I feel but on how they make me feel when I am around and with them. 

I am not really okay with you thinking about somebody else while I am here still aching for our love that cannot be anymore. But I want to let you go. Just 1 week more and we will be 1 month away from the day we broke up. It was not the hardest moment of my life but it felt like it. But I am doing so much better choosing myself everyday. 

One day, I will love the right one. And it won't be you. And I will say to myself, I am glad I moved on, I am glad we broke up. Because then, I would know that I am being loved as genuinely and as vulnerably as I do love someone. 

Thank you for helping me let you go.