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My love is a toxic Sinister poison that will wreck, ruin, annihilate every bit of Sanity logic mentality until my love, my affection, my attention, my craving, my sexual hunger, my endearment my feelings are the only things left inside of them. My love is a desire to break, traumatize, own, control, and torment. My love is the urge to care, to listen, to know ever so intimately and deeply, to be a place where someone can be themselves completely even when broken especially when broken, to intertwine with someone so deeply that we can never exist separately, to truly bury someone in so much excessive affection that is all they eat, sleep, and breathe that is the entirety of life. My love is fucked up Twisted deranged vile sick sadistic overly excessively obsessive unyielding overwhelming affection Non-Stop sexual devouring constant loving possessive passionate attention. Never stopping, never shrinking only ever growing more and more and more with each passing second falling deeper and deeper in love with that person forever. I am a danger, I have too many treats and cravings and stuff like that in common with abusers, rapest, stalkers, and a number of other trauma inducers we will call them that with a lot of desires and urges that can be considered dark, vile, twisted, and sickening that on all honesty of given the chance I would indulge in so f****** quick. The only difference is everything I do is kind of by an extreme intense excessive need to love someone with everything in my fiber of being with an overwhelming amount of affection to a point of absolute insanity and deranged. My entire existence is both intense needy excessive clingy obsessive toxic dark twisted overly affectionate intimacy addicted cuddle happy super attached suffocating touchy feely separation anxiety love sickness or extreme insatiable constant all-consuming evil vile sick fucked up sinister sadistic deprived degenerate forceful freaky tyrannical feral carnal hypersexual urges. So nine times out of 10 the only thing in my mind is dark twisted relationships and f***** up vile fantasies. So yeah I'm toxic, I'm dangerous, I can do a lot of damage if I'm not constantly careful and constantly acknowledging that I am a problem for literally more than 99% of the entirety of the world. I am someone who is scum, and undesirable to just about everyone I come across and that's something I need to keep in mind a majority of time. I have to make sure that I keep control of myself, that I am very very extremely careful with my love and who has it and how much of it I express. Like finding someone to be completely in utterly obsessed with without holding back in the slightest who craves both my yandere side, monster side, and all of the boring stuff too who is willing to love me with everything they have and let me have all of them and will accept every ounce of love that I have in every form that it takes and accept everything that comes with it is genuinely the most important thing to me like one important than anything. Becoming someone's dark sadistic god and making them my lovely ruin world is my number one priority and the thing that I breathe, sleep and eat it's literally the thing that I live for and the reason I exist it is pretty much everything with me only thing even coming close to it is my desire for kids and starting a family but I'm not someone who is allowed to have that you know at least not normally so I do have to be careful because of my touch is corrosive poisonous and toxic so it's not a high possibility because I'm not really made for most people. I have to acknowledge that and be cautious so I don't end up you know causing trouble is the phrase and I'm going to use. To be quite honest I don't care if the world hates me, I don't care about the world's existence to begin with. I care about most and basically all I care about is finding in a abnormality that will let me breathe and live the way I want to live I am capable to make happy by being what I am. I want to be allowed to love and have their love with complete acceptance
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