Royalty. Eminence. Sainthood. Queen. She is all of these and more in my eyes and would be treated as such if and when I find her or better said "when she finds me" Because it will be her that chooses me I'm sure, for she is more than capable of such decisions. Our bond would be unmatched. Our friendship? Unbreakable. The perfect relationship. No lies, no sneaking around, no hurting but existing to uplift! To encourage! To support! To love! To be there for each other while doing the very best to inspire happiness everyday! The trust, the companionship, the intimacy, this is what I seek and this is what matters. The bond is so important to me for I crave depth. She will know without any shred of a doubt that I have her back unconditionally. I will support unconditionally. I will love her. ALL of her and make sure she promises me to live out her most wildest fantasies, uninhibited, for life is short. Way too short. And any Man that does not allow his girl to indulge in her desires is just plain selfish and very, very, insecure. I'm neither. I'm Just having a very, very difficult time finding my Queen of Spades. Hopefully this post will aid in my never ending quest for my beloved Queen. And if it doesn't may I have some advice on how to find my Queen. Because in the past when I proposed this to girlfriends that I had been with for a while all think I'm just joking and playing games. I don't know why because I was very serious. I've been told in more than one occasion that perhaps I'm too Alpha looking/Acting to be in "that lifestyle" lol, whatever that means, but anyways, I need help. I need a Queen. She is the perfect woman and I would never need another.